TO GET TO YOU - ( 3/11 )

[octavialao]

Title: To Get To You
Author: Power Ranger Red Sho Nut octavialao

Pairings: Sakumoto

Genre: Angst, Romance
Length: Multi-chaptered

Summary: Jun left Sho. He can't blame him though. It was all his fault. But he wants to see him again to get him back.

He was cold as ice. Warmth escaped his body. His eyes were bloodshot. He can no longer feel the pain in his knuckles, nor hear the sound of his breathing, nor taste the blood on his mouth. He was devoured by darkness. He lay there, in the piercing cold floor. The silence and stillness he thought.

“AM I DEAD?”


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“Satoshi?”

“Yes, Sho-chan what is it?”

“Ano, I can I ask you something?”

“Ofcourse, what is it?”

“Did you receive an invitation from Jun?” he asked nervously. Nino and Aiba looked at Sho with wide eyes. Then Nino turned to Aiba giving him a look that could mean either “Idiot what did you do now?” or “ YOU! IDIOT I’LL KILL YOU.” Aiba whimpered and try as much to avoid Nino’s gaze.

Sho looked at the older man intently, trying to decipher Satoshi’s expression. But he was amazed at how normal the older man looks.

“Yes.” Ohno replied.

“Are you going?”

“Yes, I will and so as Nino and Aiba.”

“ahmm, Sho-chan how did you knew about the invitation?” Masaki asked Sho curiously.

“about that..” Sho reached for his bag and produced an elegant looking purple invitation ang gave it to Aiba.”

“you unconsciously dropped that last night. A staff gave it to me for safe keeping. I’m sorry if I opened it without permission.”

Now Nino snorted and quickly shoot killing stares at the older man. And Aiba feel that a thousand daggers were thrown to his back.

Sho choked and his breathing pick up instantly. Blood was rushing to his head and he began to feel dizzy he can’t understand why.

“Does he want me to come?”

“If he wanted to, you should have received the invitation by now.”

He wanted to bang his head on the wall. Ofcourse! if Jun wanted to invite him, he should have received something informing him to such event. He already knew that it was impossible, but somehow a big part of him wants to see Jun, to touch Jun. Hope lingered since last night, but reality hit him hard that he fell silent and tears are almost on the verge of falling.

Ohno tapped his back. The older man always knew what to do. A simple gesture from Satoshi can make him better in an instant. No matter how not leader like Ohno looks, the man is indeed someone who you can rely on.

“Let’s go out tonight. I need a few drinks. “ Ohno said with a smile and with that Sho smiled as well.


“Riida! Sho-chan! Nino-chan!” Aiba called after them. He was the last one to arrive at the bar. They had a few drinks more than they could take. Aiba started crying and hugging the other members. Telling them that he loves Arashi so much and no matter what happened they will always be Arashi. Aiba started to cling on Ohno. The older man was not even bothered. Nino stood up and went to the loo. Sho, the heavy drinker among Arashi had more rounds of alcohol till his bladder could not take it and needs to take care of his bursting organ. As he made his way to the loo he saw Nino, his back facing him. He was going to approach him when he heard him say.

“Yes, Jun. We tried to hide it from him. We really did. But that idiot Aiba messed up twice. First he almost told Sho about the invitation then he did the worst case scenario. He dropped the invitation and the staff gave to Sho.”

There was a long pause. Sho could almost feel the ice in his back. He could not understand what was happening.

“yea, I’m very sorry J. Won’t happen again. Yea. Okay. Say hi to Stephanie for me. We will see you soon again. Bye” with that Nino hung up.

Sho took a minute to recover. As Nino slowly turned towards Sho’s direction he could now feel his anger and confusion. Sho immediately walked toward Nino whose face showed his shock.

“Sho-chan, you going to use the toilet?”

“Have you always been intouch with Jun?”

Nino now could not hide his reaction anymore. He tensed up but he immediately relaxed himself. Sho in the other hand was almost fuming with anger.

“Yea! Even after he left we still kept in touch. Its not only me, He keeps in touch with Oh-chan and Aiba too.”

“WHAT?! But, but, but you never told me! Why didn’t you tell me? WHY!?”

“why would I? It does not concern you if we were still in touch.”

“you brat!”

Sho grabbed the collar of Nino’s plaid polo shirt. He was panting, all the anger run up his head. He pinned the younger man to the wall. Sho almost flung his fist into Nino’s face when he suddenly felt a pair of hands in his arms and pulled him away from the younger man.

“Sho! Stop it!” Ohno restrained him. Sho was grunting and tried to escape from Ohno. But he never thought that the older man was stronger than him. He squirmed but Ohno held him in place. He felt his frustration rising up. He can’t believe that his friends could betray him like that.

“You! All of you! You betrayed me! I can’t believe that you betrayed me! Why! You knew what I went through! What I felt when he left! You knew..” He stopped squirming and felt his knees failing. As tears fall in his eyes, Ohno still held him up, but not to restrain him but to hug him. He patted Sho’s back in a comforting way that the younger man find it hard to be angry with him anymore. Nino went beside Sho and Ohno. And he also patted Sho’s shoulders.

“Why? Why didn’t you tell me? You knew I needed him.”

“I’m sorry Sho, because Jun does not want you to know. He wants to forget you.” Ohno whispered in Sho’s left ear.

“But I’m your friend Nino! Oh-chan! I’M YOUR FRIEND!”

“But Jun is also our friend Sho. Not just you. It pains us knowing that two of our friends are hurting.”

“Sho, believe us, we won’t intentionally lie to you if we meant to hurt. You’re our friend, and Jun is a friend as well. We all love you both equally. We’re Arashi remember. Our relationship is more than what friends and family has.” Nino said in a soothing voice.

“but, but, Jun. I need Jun. Ohno please. Let me see Jun. Let him know I need him. I want him back. I want to see him. Nino! Please! Please, let me touch him, feel him. Please I beg you! Please! Please!”

“Sho, I’m really sorry. Please understand. We know you’re in pain but seeing you brings too much pain to Jun as well. I know time will come that all the pain will go away and the scars will heal. “
Ohno now is hugging Sho with all his might. Nino behind him was stroking his hair with much tenderness.

Sho couldn’t say more, or he couldn’t think of anything at all. All he knew is that Jun does not want to see Sho, and he hated him. All he could feel is pain. He wished right there and that he could just die.



He didn’t sleep a week after that. The lack of sleep does not bother him. After 17 years of working in the entertainment industry, he develop the rule that work comes first than sleep. Truthfully he is afraid to sleep. His dreams were more vivid and more painful. No, rather his dreams, his nightmares gave him that unbearable pain.

His manager called and asked him to meet someone for a possible movie project. Sho agreed immediately. Another job to keep him distracted. His manager picked him up his house. He asked a few questions about the director and producer he might soon be working with. The manager knew a little about the director, except he goes to New York Film Academy. The producer was already a graduate from that said academy. She is very meticulous in all the projects he handled and her ways are different than other directors and producers. She is also said to be a protégée, a great director in the making. They are working on a movie and wanted a well-awarded Japanese actor for the role.

“ The movie’s plot and overview will be discussed by the producer. She will explain everything to you and will also evaluate you at the same time. So please be attentive Sakurai-san.”

“I will.”

They arrived in a chic and posh cafe that any artsy people would often visit. Sho automatically went professional mode and compose himself. First impression last he always thought.

“He was lead to a table in the dead center of the cafe. Sho blinked twice as to register the woman in front of him. She has luminescent and porcelain like skin that glows in the light. A long blonde hair, that curls just right below her shoulders that framed her face well. She has blue round eyes that seems to glitter, a nose that is tiny but sharp nose. Cheeks that seems to blush naturally. Her lips pink and plump and Sho suddenly had the urge to kiss them. She looked regal, she looked so beautiful. But despite the beauty she was dressed poorly. We wore a dirty looking T shirt that looks a few sizes too big for her. Tattered jeans with a mud stain on the hem. And she only wore a pair of worn out slippers. He wondered if this woman was indeed the producer he was going to meet. But he reminded himself that artist often dress this way. Even Ohno has crappy private clothes.

“Good Morning, I’m Sho Sakurai. Nice to meet you!” He introduced himself. It was a good thing his English is good.

“Nice to meet you Sho. So , do you want the role?”

“I think we should first discuss about the storyline.”

“I’ll discuss it with you once you agree to take the role. So do you want it or not?”

“I.. mmm.. ahh..” Sho stummered, dumbfounded to the direct question.

“well? I haven’t got all day pretty boy.” The woman said with a dazzling smile.

“Yes.”

“great! Could you call your manager here?”

“why?”

“cause I want you to sign the contract right now.”

“ha?”

“go on, call him.” She ordered him with a smirk.

And Sho did call his manager. When the said man was sitting with them the woman produce a few sheets of paper. She handed a copy to Sho and to his manager.

“Read it, I think its a good deal. Shooting is scheduled, two day-offs. Isn’t that great? All I want Mr. Sakurai to do is to portray his role perfectly and to obey everything I say more than the director.” She said with a proud and knowing voice.

His manager read through the contract thrice and just to be sure read it the fourth time. Sho was surprised by the sudden escalation of the audition. Now he knew how strange the woman’s method is.

“So? Do you need another 10 rounds of coffee before you can say that the contract is a YES?”

“Well, the contract is just great. As you know Mr. Sakurai is an Idol and he is quite busy.”

“ I know, that’s why I made that contract specially for him. And don’t worry there is no hidden agendas in the contract. And can you just sign it already. I’m already sleepy.”

The manager gave it a go and asked Sho to sign it. Sho oblige and stamped it. The woman smiled brightly that Sho almost lost it. He thought that she might Aphrodite.

“ii ne! I’m so happy you agreed Yoshimoto-sensei. I had my eyes on you since the very beginning of this project. Ever since I saw Kazuko game I knew its going to be you.” She purred.

He was shocked, that this woman called him Yoshimoto-sensei. He felt proud that a foreign producer/director was eyeing on him for a role.

“Thank you. I’m happy as well that you found me capable for the role.”

“So, let’s do our best! And by the way I think I forgot to introduce myself. By the way I’m Stephanie Wickham. Yorushiku onegaishimasu!”

Sho only stared at her with throb on his chest. He thought

“could it be? Is she Jun’s..”




A/N: Again gomen ne minna. I started this fic with a clear mind. but again as I write this fic, a lot of ideas came into my mind. so the end product is a little far from what I originally planned. I'm a no good writer I know. but anyway enjoy! :)