nutty_arashi | TO GET TO YOU

Title: To Get To You
Author: Power Ranger Red Sho Nut

Pairings: Sakumoto

Genre: Angst, Romance
Length: Multi-chaptered

Summary: Jun left Sho. He can't blame him though. It was all his fault. But he wants to see him again to get him back.

“Sho, are you in a relationship with Matsumoto-san?” My father’s voice was stern and full of authority. This is the voice I feared for many years. It’s full of hate and disappointment. I want to crawl in my own shell.

“Are you listening?! I am asking you a question Sakurai Sho!”

“Father, I can explain.”

“Explain what?!” blood rushed to my head. I don’t want to disappoint him again.

“We are not a couple Father. We’re just band mates nothing more and nothing less.” I explained to him. The thing with Jun was never that serious.

“huh!” My father scowls. “Nothing more eh?” he went to his desk and opened the drawer and dug out a few photos and threw it on my face. I closed my eyes as the photos hit my face. They all fell on the floor.

“Then tell me, what are those then?!” I picked one photo and saw an image of me kissing Jun on the bathroom stall of a TV station. I saw the others where both Jun and I are holding hands. Some even are taken back in a vacation house we rented a few months before.

“Father, this is nothing I assure you.” My legs were shaking, because of fear and hate. I fear that I will disappoint my father. And hate, because I was so annoyed with Jun. Being all mushy and clingy was his idea. I hate the idea that I got caught because of it. I was always careful. My private life was perfectly hidden even from my father. I was still that adolescent rebel boy, I was doing things behind his back. But not anymore, I got busted and I hated it.

“Nothing? You still deny this? Will you still deny this even if I get my hands on a video scandal?” he scowls once again and pound the desk with so much force.

“Father, I admit that I have been playing around, but this thing with Matsumoto-san, it’s not serious. It will never be. The company and sex was a mutual agreement. And besides, it was him that pursued me, I swear. He was annoying me and I thought that by playing along with it can still have some advantage. But I promise father, it’s nothing. ”

“But both of you are living together on the same roof! When will you stop bringing disgrace in this family?! And the nerve you got to invite your whore in our family gathering!”

“Father, I’m sorry. It’s really nothing. He’s just an outlet to relieve myself from stress. His nothing, he means nothing to me. Please believe me.” I pleaded. It was the truth though, or so I thought.

“I don’t know if I can still trust you! For crying out loud, you’re my first born son! And I cannot accept that my SON is a GAY! A disgrace!”

“Father, tomorrow I’ll make things better I promise you. I can stop this game. I already told you, I’m not attached to him. I don’t like him. He’s just a friend with sexual benefits.”
“You better do!”

“I will.”

I went out my father’s office. My mother told me that Jun already went home. I thanked her for the wonderful dinner and left. I was still in no mood to go home. I have to think about what to do with the situation. I know Jun will understand if I tell him that I need time and need to be away from him for awhile. He will never complain, he never complained. So I was so sure that he will agree to break up for awhile.

When I opened the door there was an awful silence. I climbed the stairs and saw that the door of the bedroom was slightly opened. I went in and saw that the room was empty. There was no sign of Jun. I looked for him in the bathroom. But he was not there. I threw myself on the bed. My head was already throbbing. Maybe he’s in the kitchen making hot chocolate for me like he always do when he arrives home before me.

I was tired and a little tipsy from the wine I drunk. I placed my right hand on my forehead and soon I drift to sleep. I was woken up by the creaking sound of an opened door. I sat up and saw Jun holding a cup. He was standing near the bed.

“Okaeri.”

“Tadaima. Where have you been? Why did you went home by yourself?”

“You were talking with your Father. Both of you were deep in thoughts, so I left. And I feel like I was intruding at your parent’s house.” He bows his head and face the cup of hot chocolate he was holding.

“You should have waited for me.”
“Your Father, he knows about us right? And that’s what you talked about.” I raised my brow in this inquiry of his.

“This doesn’t concern you Jun.” I replied irritably. He looks up from his cup and shoot me a sharp gaze.
“How does this not my concern? Sho, I’m your boyfriend. And ofcourse, what your father thinks of me, of this relationship is important to me!”

“Stop being a girl Jun!” I was now fuming with anger. The shouting only made my headache worst. I throw myself in the bed once more and covered by face with a pillow.

“I’m not being a girl Sho. I thought we’re in this thing together.” I was now really irritated. I whisked away the pillow in my face and sat up and looked at his face with burning gaze.

“You’re not my boyfriend Jun. Remember I only agreed to be with you. Not necessarily entitle you to be my boyfriend.” It’s my turn to scowl. Jun only gaped at me, his mouth opened and his hands shaking. He placed the cup on the bedside table and turned back to me.

“What do you mean?”

“Jun, do you really think I like you? I’ll be honest with you. Look the company and the sex was great. But I don’t have any feelings for you. You’re just my band mate.” There was an awful silence. I couldn’t even believe that I said that to Jun. The alcohol had made me like this.

“So is that why you told your Father that I am nothing to you?” I turn

“uggh! Jun stop! Stop okay? I don’t wanna talk about this!”

“We are going to talk about this! Tell me Sho, what am I to you? Huh?”

“Stop it!” My head was going to explode any minute. I looked away and fixed my gaze on the window.

“Tell me Sho! Tell me! Tell it straight to my face! What am I to you!” He was now sitting beside and trying to make me face him. He held my face but I spanked it away. I was really pissed at him.

“A whore okay? A whore! Happy? You’re just my quick fuck!” I spat in his face. He stills and looked at me. His eyes were blank and he looks pale. There was no more words spoken between the two of us. For quite sometime he stood and went straight to the door. And that was the last time I saw him. Jun left.

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Only the flickering light of the candle is the only light that surrounds the small space of the living room. Only the soft waves that hit the shore and the breathing of the man beside me the only sound that I can be hear. And it’s only Jun’s warmth I can feel. He is the only thing that seems real today. But somehow, the greater part of me is telling me to wake up from a dream.

We are lying on the carpet floor, Jun beside me, holding me, almost clinging to me in desperation. I wrapped my left arm around his neck and my right hand caressing his cheeks. After what he showed me a while ago, it only made me cling to him as much I he did, but at the same time, I was also guilty as hell, sinking deeper on the grave I helped dig. I wish time would stop.

“Sho, what are you thinking?”

“hmm? Nothing in particular.”

“ Are you sure? I thought you’d be happy.”

“I am happy. I am happy to be with you. And happy about the news.” I smiled at him. Pinching his nose as I go.

“but?”

“ha?”

“But what Sho? I know you well enough to know that something is bothering you.”

“Jun, why? Why are we really here? Why Am I the first person to know that you can walk?” I was confused and I want answers.

“To be honest, I don’t know. I have been bitter and I promised myself that never again will I see you in this way. I hated you so much. And sometimes I even wished that I haven’t met you.” He laughs, but I can see tears in the corners of his eyes.

“Jun.”

“Sho, why did you do that?” I was taken aback by his question.

“Do what Jun?” I knew what he meant, but I feigned innocence and asked.

“Why did you hurt me?”It was almost a whisper.

There it is. The question I was anticipating. This time, we were both silent. I couldn’t formulate any words. He just stared at me with painful eyes, begging for a reasonable explanation. I tried to open my mouth but the words won’t come out.

“why? Have I not love you enough?”

“Jun, no-“

“I wait for you every night, I cook for you, I make love to you. Despite your workaholic nature I never once complained even if you forgot my birthday and knew through the other members. “ He was now sobbing tears fell with intensity that I felt my chest being pound by a thousand hammers with each tear that falls.

“I never complained when you’re very affectionate to the other members especially to Riida but not to me. When you got home drunk and boasting how hard you fucked the girls at the bar, I tried to push it away. I never stop loving you after I knew that there was another man. Even if it feels that our relationship was all about sex, I never gave up. I endured all of them Sho. I did because I love you. But Why?” I tried to hug him, but he pushed me away. The tears, his tears, I was not used to them. I have never seen him cry in front of me.

“That night when you invited me to your parents’ house, When I heard you and your father talked about us. Sho, I thought you’ll fight for me. To tell your father that you love me and I’m important. But, Sho I can’t understand why? Why would you say that I’m nothing to you? That I only seduced you? That I look like a lost puppy whose got a big crush on you?”

I was shivering. I couldn’t speak. He heard. And now I understand why he felt so much bitterness. I want to touch him now, to embrace him, but at the same time, I felt guilt. I have to admit, I really only saw him as a member of Arashi, a friend and my sexual slave. I always thought that I don’t need someone to love. Arashi was enough for me, and some random girl or boy to satisfy me in bed. But everything changed, when he left me.

“Jun, I-“ I tried to be brave enough to speak.

“I admit. I did only see you as someone I that I only took advantage of. I did fool around behind your back. I treated you like you’re my maid. And yes, I admit. I only thought of my reputation, my family’s reputation. I thought, you’re nothing to me. But Jun, I knew how much you mean to me when you left. Maybe I did feel relieved when you left all by yourself. It saved me the time and effort to convince you to leave. But Jun, days passed by quickly, I realized that I was so used to you being near me that the days without you, seems to strangle the life out of me.” My voice trembled.

“I wanted to take you back. I want to look for you. But my pride got the best of me. I thought that you deserve that for provoking me, but Jun I regret it. It was too late to know that I was in love with you. ” I reached for his face. I caressed it.

“Jun, I love you. I really do. And that’s the truth.” I kissed him. And all my regrets, all my love I poured in to this kiss. I want him to believe that I do love him. I was surprised to feel that he reciprocated my kiss. He broke the kiss and looked deeply in my eyes, as if reaching for my heart and soul.

“No matter how much I hated you, no matter how hard I tried to forget you Sho. I just couldn’t. Cause no matter what, it’s always you. ” And with that I felt my tears raced down my face. And I kissed him again with passion. I lay him down the velvet soft carpet. We were caught in the moment. As our tongues explored each other’s mouths, as our hands trailed the each other’s flesh. I felt a sense of familiarity. Jun’s sound and kisses, and touch was all for me. I felt that I am home, The man below me is the man that was meant for me.

But the thought of Satoshi and Stef invaded my brain. I knew this was wrong. That both Jun and I were being unfair, selfish. I promised Satoshi that I would try, but here I am kissing Jun. And Stef, I was stealing her boyfriend and the father of his child. But I brushed them aside. Tonight, it’s all about me and Jun. Tonight I won’t let anyone come between us. Being able to feel his bare skin to mine was overwhelming. I almost cried. This is what I’ve been dreaming about. To touch him dearly, I kiss every patch of skin I can see. His moans were more beautiful than I in my dreams.

“Sho, take me. Please. Make love to me.” He moves and positioned himself, he was now all on fours. And with the burning desire flooded with emotions, I took him. He was now mine again. We were one and without touching his’ I lead him to his climax. He arches his back and called my name over and over again. I was also near mine but I stopped. I showered him with kisses from his nape down to his spine.

“Sho, what’s the matter?”

He turned his head to see my face. He had that questioning look and as if he couldn’t process the reaction on my face. I pulled out from him. He sat up and turned his whole body to me. I kissed him and my hands played with his own length. Soon it was standing proud once again. And then I laid myself down without breaking the kiss. Jun was now on top of me. I pulled away and gaze at his eyes.

“Jun, I want you to take me.” Jun gasped. He was definitely surprised. I was always on top. But me asking himto take definitely surprised him.

“But Sho you-“

“I want you to take me Jun. Take me. Please. I want to feel you inside me.” He was hesitant.

“Jun, Please?” And I took his hand and placed it over my chest.

“Jun, I want you to take me. I want to be my first, and my last. I want it to be yours.” Jun tears fell down my eyes. He was crying. He leaned down and kissed me softly. I felt his hand probing my entrance. I stopped him.

“No, Jun. Take me now.”

“But Sho, this is your first. It’ll hurt if I don’t prepare you.”

“It’s okay. I want to feel the pain and the pleasure. I want to feel you.” I smiled. Convincing him that it was okay and I’m ready. He positioned himself and lifts my right leg. And he entered me slowly. I’m lying if I said it didn’t hurt. It hurts like hell. As his length intruded me, I could feel my tears falling. But knowing it was Jun who cause me the pain, made me forget about the pain. He brushed the tears in my eyes and gave me enough time to get used to his length. When I felt that I could take it I squeeze his hands.

Feeling Jun inside me as he moves feels like I’m in heaven. The pain was replaced with pleasure, content and pure happiness. I screamed his name like he did when I took him. And almost the same time we reached our climax. This will forever be imprinted not only in my memory but in my heart as well.

I am his,FOREVER.

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“Where have you been Sho?” Satoshi’s worried face was the first thing I saw when I came home. Brows furrowed his eyes puffy and dark. Maybe he didn’t sleep at all. He stride towards me and cupped my face. Within this close proximity, I can see that his eyes were bloodshot.

“I’m sorry, I just. I went on a drive. I didn’t feel like working.” I lied.

“But you never skipped work. That’s why I was worried. I thought something happened to you.”

“Well, there’s always a first time right?” I faked a smile. And he laughs.

“When I told you not to force yourself to work when you don’t feel like it, I never thought you’d do it. But please, can you at least tell me where you are? Or text me, call me. It kills me not knowing where you are.” He stroked my cheeks and leans to kiss them.

“Yes, I will. I’m sorry.”

“Are you hungry? I’ll cook dinner.”

“No, I’m full. You want to cuddle?”

“Now?” Satoshi’s eyes were curious.

“Yes.” I walked towards the sofa and tried to look like my butt isn’t aching. I sat down and flinched slightly from the pain. When I recovered I gestured him to sit beside me. He obeyed and sat beside me. I hugged him and let him leaned his body to my chest. I run my fingers through his hair. I felt him stiffen to my touch. But soon he relaxed.

“When is your day off?”

“The filming for my drama will end this month. So probably I’ll have a week free. Why?”

“let’s go on a trip. I’ve always wanted to go to Barcelona. I guess this would be the best time.”

“Barcelona?” He sat up and looked at me. waiting to say that I’m just joking.

“Yea. After my drive to the sea, I want to travel again.” He beams at me.

“Well then, I’ll cancel my fishing appointments this month and next month. I can’t wait for this trip! It’ll be special since itt’ll be our first out of the country trip together.” Satoshi looked like a child. His smile was genuine and pure bliss. I smiled along with him. I need to do this. This is the least I can do after what happened last night.

“Should we book our tickets now? How about you? Are you free next month...”

I was not listening to Satoshi anymore. All I did was nod and smile. My thoughts were on Jun.. I wonder if he was already home. I already regret why I never stayed. But this is the best for all of us. I need to be with Satoshi, and he needs to be with Stephanie and their baby.

“Sho,” Satoshi’s touch jerked me back to reality. I smiled again to him.

“Are you listening Sho?”

“Yes, I am.”

“Well you look like you aren’t. Are you okay?”

“I’m a little sleepy that’s all. I drove all day long.”

“Oh, I see. You should get some sleep now.”

“Okay. I’ll just take a shower. Goodnight.”

“Goodnight.” He kissed my forehead and I head upstairs to my room.

The next day, I was woken up by the constant ringing of the doorbell. I was getting pissed because the person definitely wants to drown my ear with all the noise. I looked up at the clock, it was 6:35 in the morning. What the heck does this guy want so early in the morning. I bet Satoshi is still asleep. He is a heavy sleeper and a mere sound of the doorbell won’t wake him up.

I climbed down the stairs but the ringing still goes on. I was already at my limit when I clicked on the intercom so I could have a good look at the jerk that was disturbing my morning. My jaw hanged open when I saw who was on the other side.

“Good morning Sakurai-san. I think your doorbell isn’t functioning well. I have been pressing it for quite sometime now.” The person smiled coldly. I could feel the anger in the screen.

“I see. Please come inside Stephanie-san.”

She came in and without warning she slapped me in the face. It was so hard and strong that I knew it’ll left a bruise on my cheek. I touched my face and stared at her.

“Where the heck is Jun?”

“I don’t know Stephanie.”

“Do you think I’ll let you steal him away from me? Don’t lie! I knew you were with him yesterday.”

“I don’t know what you are talking about.”

“You exactly know what I am talking about! He told me what happened yesterday! And because of that little date you had with him, he is confused and lost! He told me that he still loves you! And he wants to break up with me!” I can see her tears rolling down her face.

“Stephanie. I-“

“Shut up! Shut up! I don’t want any explanation. I just want to know where he is!” She was now shouting. Her face was red and her tears just kept on falling.

“I don’t know Stephanie. I didn’t come back with him last night.”

“Oh! Really? But you’re planning to run away together is that it? But I won’t let you! I was suppose to tell him about our baby! His baby! But you ruined everything! And now he’s gone! It’s all your fault!” She slapped me once again and hit me in the face and on my chest.

“Give him back you jerk! Give me back Jun!”

“Stephanie please, calmed down!” I tried to hold her but she keeps on hitting me.

“Calmed down? How can I calm down you jerk! Tell me where’s Jun! Tell me! My baby! My baby has lost his father! And it’s your fault Sakurai! You ruined my family!” She suddenly still and clutched her hands on her stomach.

“Ah!” She screamed. Then when I looked down the floor was pooled with blood.

“Stephanie!” I was glued to where I was standing. I was unable to move at the sight of blood. The baby I thought and it dawned t me what was happening. Then I saw Satoshi scooping up Stephanie and went to the door.

“Just don’t stand there Sho! Open the door and bring your keys!”

All I did was nod and I dashed to my room to grab my keys and run outside. I was fumbling as I inserted the key and started the engine. Luckily it was only a 15 min ride to the nearest hospital. Me and Satoshi were waiting for the doctor for Stephanie was rushed to the emergency room. I felt guilty for what happened. I keep on staring at the wall and buried my face on my hands. A moment later Nino and Aiba arrived.

“What happened?” Aiba wore a worried expression. And he keeps on looking at me and Satoshi.

“Can you guys wait for Jun? I want to go home” Satoshi interrupted and stood up and turned away from us. I stood up as well. I know that he didn’t brought his wallet with him and he can’t go home alone. I catch up on him and placed my hands on his shoulders.

“Satoshi I’ll drive you home.” He turned his face to me and His eyes were dark and full of anger he slapped my hand with his.

“I can walk myself home.”

“Satoshi please, atleas-“

“Riida! Sho!” I turn towards the direction of the voice. It was Jun.

“Jun!”

“Where is she?”

“She’s still in the emergency room Jun. I- I’m sorry.” I look down. I said sorry cause I feel like it’s all my fault.

“Don’t be. Please. It’s not your fault. It’s mine.” I looked up to him. I can see the guilt and regret on his face.

“Aiba and Nino are in the waiting room. I think you should go there now. Don’t worry okay. She’ll be fine.” I smiled at him and pat his back. He returned the smile and walked away from us.

I watched his fleeting figure. I haven’t realized that Satoshi already left. I went out and rushed to my car. I drove back to an empty house. Satoshi was nowhere to be found. I tried calling him but his phone was turned off. I was phasing back and fort to the living room and kitchen. Hours passed he still didn’t came home. I was worried, still my calls can’t get through. The clock strikes 12 and still there was no sign of Satoshi. I retire to my room and decided to take a quick shower. After 10 mins I heard a loud thud in the living room.

I quickly got out of the bathroom and put on a shirt and some pants. I got down and saw Satoshi tearing the wallpaper. The Tv was totally destroyed. The glass table, smashed. The picture frames were scattered everywhere. I dashed to his side to stop him from throwing the vases on the floor.

“Satoshi! What are you doing?” I reached him but quickly slapped my hand away from him. He continued to smash the vase in front of me. I stared at him, his eyes were blank. There was a strong smell of alcohol and cigarette. His eyes bloodshot. He reaches for another vase and held it up.

“Satoshi. Please. Stop it! Stop it before you hurt yourself.” I pleaded. He stopped midway and turned to face me. Anger flushed to his face.

“Hurt myself?” He laughs and throws the vase near my feet. I almost jumped as it shatters to the floor.

“Sho, I was already hurting when I fell in love with you. Loving you is painful.” He clenched his fist and pounds it against his chest

“Here! Right here Sho! It hurts! It hurts so much! I feel like dying! And this house! This house I dreamt of building. This house that I dreamt of sharing with you! This was just a waste of time, money, and effort. Just like my love for you. It’s just a waste! I built this with my own hands, passion and love. And now I destroy it myself!” he punched the wall twice. It was so hard that I saw blood coming out of his knuckles. And he continues to destroy everything in his path.

I couldn’t stop my tears from falling. This house was precious to Ohno. He built this himself, with his own hands. The passion and effort he put in building this. This house was the materialization of his love for me. And All I did was disappoint him, hurt him. I closed in on him. And I hugged him, his back on my chest and my head on his shoulder.

“Satoshi, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” He didn’t moved an inch. We just stood there, him in my arms.

“I don’t know If I can trust you anymore. Huh! I bet the trip to Barcelona was just something you thought to ease your guilt right? Then after you’ll come running back to Jun! Jun! Jun! It’s always Jun!” He screamed. And my heart felt like it was stabbed.

“It hurts Sho. It hurts so much. You said that you would try. Everytime I take a step towards you, you take 2 steps away from me. How can I ever reach you?” His breathing hitched and I knew he was crying.

“Satoshi, I’m sorry. Please fogive me. I know I have done wrong. Please.” I hugged him tighter. We were crying together.

The guilt is now unbearable. Satoshi is broken, I’ve caused him nothing but pain. Stephanie is in the hospital because of me. And she may lose her child. All I ever do is hurt all the people around me. I’m selfish, and evil.
Satoshi fell asleep on my lap. I was sitting on the couch and stroking his hair. I looked at his watch and the time tells me it’s already morning. I let him sleep some more. I noticed his bruised, bloodstained knuckles and thought that I should clean his wounds. I was reluctant to move, my legs were already numb but I don’t have the heart to wake Satoshi up. He was still sober and miserable and I crinkled my nose when I remembered his painful expression.

My phone rings and I quickly reached for it on my pocket. I was afraid it would wake up Satoshi and answered it without even looking up the screen to see who was calling.

“Hello, Sho.”

“Jun?”

“Hi. I just called to tell you that Stef and the baby are okay. The doctor will discharged us later.”

“That’s great news.” I tried to sound happy, well in fact I wasn’t.

“Yea.”

“Yea.”

There was a long silence. I don’t know what to say anymore. I had the urge to say that I love him but I’m just adding more fuel to the fire. I look down
at the sleeping man in my lap and again the pain in my chest appeared. A tear fell on my cheek. I don’t know what to do anymore.

“I love you Sho.” I blinked thrice just to register what Jun said. I tried to open my mouth to say the same but I was cut off midway.

“But I guess, we were not just meant to be. I need to take care of Stef, and our baby.” A lump on my throat choked me and I bit my lips to stop myself from sobbing.

“I guess we aren’t.” I lied. I believe we were.

“Me and Stef are flying back to New York. Then after we settle some things there were flying to Australia in her hometown. I think the countryside will be good for her and the baby.” He pronounced the word baby with guilt. I bet he was also blaming himself for the near lost of his child.

“I think, I think that a good idea.” My voice croaked and my tears finally fell like a waterfall. It was too painful to let him go.

“Yea. Well I guess this is goodbye.”

“I gues this is it.”

“Goodbye Sho.”

“Goodbye Jun.” No one dared to hang up. We lingered there, in silence. I knew that Jun find it difficult to say goodbye and to hang up. I need to tell him these last words.

“well, I’ll hang up first.” He whispered, I hear a small sob from the other line. My heart raced and I utter the words as fast as I can.

“Jun, I-.”

Beep was all I can hear. He hang up. I was too slow to say it.

“I love you.” And I closed my eyes and cried silently.

I woke up in the dark and half destroyed living room. I stretched out my arms and rubbed my eyes. I stayed still as my eyes adjusted to the darkness. I noticed that Ohno isn’t lying on my lap anymore. I stood up and looked for him around the kitchen and garden. But there was no Satoshi. I went upstairs to my room then his. Then I saw his cabinet opened and empty. I sink in to the floor. I cried and cried, but I knew that I deserve this. I deserve to be
alone.

“I’m all alone. They left me.”

A/N: Gomen girls as expected I can't write a happy ending for Sakumoto. I just find this ending appropriate. Gomen. I'm crying with you if you cried. I just, I don't know. Sho ending up alone is a bit realistic. Sho baby I'm sorry. Sho wifeys I'm sorry! please don't hate me! But I'll make it up to you girls. I'm planning to write another fic. Not a Sakumoto though. but still, please read my next fics.

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angst for everyone :'(
sho is all alone, jun lives with woman he never love, and leader can't get his love too..
stephanie really pissed me off, why does she makes sho meet jun if only to break their heart more -_-
but i love angst story XD
thanks for sharing this :)

Yes. Angst for everyone. I'm a sucker for angst!

We can never always have everything we want and need. And that's why, all three of them will never be together. there's just things that are not meant for us, no matter how we want it.

I love Stephanie though. I just love how she made sense about everything in Yamamoto's life.

Thank you for reading, Love!

yes, you're right,
people need to realize that there must be something which we can't get no matter what,
i love angst plot so much, and yes stephanie successfully makes angst for everyone here ^^

*nods feverishly*

Yes. No matter how bad we want it. We can't just have it. And I think that's the most painful thing in this world.

Angst is the best. Thanks for reading love! I'll post 3 new fics today.. :)

im the one who feel grateful that you sharing your fic XD
3 new fics ? cool ! i'll read it for sure ^^

They're already posted dear. :)

This is so sad, oh just come to me Oh-chan, hehe.
Consider a script writer career? This script should be in Stef's hands now, so she could make that-film-with string-and harness-things.
Thanks for this :D.

HAHAHAHA! I dunno about that script writer thingy though.. hahaha I still lack skills in writing! Let's see.. I'm a Literature student after all, somehow I might be stirred in that direction!

Thanks for reading! :D

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