TO GET TO YOU - ( 7/11 )

[octavialao]

Title: To Get To You
Author: Power Ranger Red Sho Nut octavialao

Pairings: Sakumoto

Genre: Angst, Romance
Length: Multi-chaptered

Summary: Jun left Sho. He can't blame him though. It was all his fault. But he wants to see him again to get him back.

“Jun.”

He is lying next to me, snuggling his face on the crook of my neck. His breathing was like music in my ears. The warmth, his warmth envelopes me as his arms rests on my body, his right hand on my chest. His face is lovely, his eyelashes long and curled. His nose, so majestic. His lips thin and pink, and that mole under it is just adorable. How did I deserve to be with this man?

“Sho..” he stirs, and his eyes flutters. He is smiling at me. My heart leaps with glee. I missed that smile. That smile that make every fangirls crazy. It was only for me, and only for me. I graze my hands in his hair and he moans.

“Sho, why are you still awake?”

“I couldn’t sleep. And I was tempted to watch you sleep. And it was worth it. You look like an Angel.” He chuckles, I miss that sound too. How am I to hear it again.

“only when I’m asleep?”

Now, it’s my turn to chuckle. I whispered to his ear.

“No, You’re beautiful, always.”

He smiles, and he titls his head to my face and kisses me in my right cheek. Then he kisses my left cheek and then my nose. He looks deep into my eyes and whisper softly.

“You’re more beautiful. Sho. More beautiful than anything that I have laid my eyes on. I love you, dearly, and deeply.” And he kisses me, soft and sweet. His hands cup my face. Soon the kiss becomes deep, strong and needy. My hand grazes his neck down to his chest. Jun shivers when my hand grazes on a sensitive spot. I move and I am now on top of him. We kiss until we were out of breath. We look at each other’s eyes. Electricity flows in my entire being. I am aching to touch him. His eyes were pleading, begging me to take him, to love him, to never leave him.

“Jun, You’re the most precious thing I have in this world.” I sweep his fringe away and kiss his forehead.

“Without you, I can’t see, I can’t hear, I can’t feel, I can’t breathe. “ Now, I kiss his lips and neck.

“You’re the heat that warms my being. You are the reason for my being.” I tugged his shirt up and tore it away from his body. My lips trail his chest down to his stomach. Jun moans as I kiss every inch of skin, sweetly and passionately.

“And without you, Jun. Without you, I would be nothing. I would be a living dead. Because I love you, Jun. And you are my life.” I kiss his lips, like my life depended on it. Kissing him like there’s no tomorrow. Jun pulls me closer to him. Now not only our lips are in contact, but our body as well. I can feel his warmth more, and I am filled with greed, wanting more of him.

I could feel the evidence of our desires. I touch him, dearly, as if he is a fragile glass. I kiss and bit every skin my lips grazes. His moans are my music, my lifeline. I was falling deeper and deeper. His flesh to mine burns, and the fire devoured my being. His scent was like Heroine, his face was even more beautiful as his sweat ornates his beautiful face.

“Sho, take me. I am yours’ and will always be yours’.” I heard him say. And that is all I need to know that he is mine. And always will be. As I take him, our bodies become one I knew that this love this love is meant to be.

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I woke up, and the light hurts my eyes. Everything is fuzzy and white. I squint a few more as my eyes adjusted to my environment. I heard someone saying my name. And I turn to my right. I focused to him, no, I focused to her. And I could see her worried face as she chants my name over and over again. I remembered Jun beside me. But it seems it was just another dream.

“Oh God, Sho! Sho! You’re awake! Sho!”

“Where am I?”

“Sho are okay? Do you feel any pain? Sho!” She burst to tears. I felt annoyed with her. I didn’t want her tears and sobs. I want to know where the heck I am and to know where Jun is.

Then I remembered. I remembered what happened. He slipped. He fell, but he also remembered that someone embraced him as he was falling. It was Jun. Jun!

“WHERE’S JUN?!” I screamed. I know where I am, all my sense were awake and on alert. My body ached as I tried to sit up and looked at the woman beside me.

“Sho, please calmed down. Don’t get up, you just woke up please.” She tells me between sobs.

“I SAID WHERE THE HECK IS JUN, KEIKO?! WHERE IS HE?!” I screamed in her face. She took a step backward. Her face is filled with horror. She was definitely shocked and surprise for my outburst. But my mind was on high alert. I was panicking. I wanted to know if Jun is okay. She recovered from her shock and approach slowly.

“Sho, please, atleast calm down a bit. Jun.. he’s, he’s okay.” She touched my hand. Then I realized that I was shaking. She wiped my face know filled with tears. I didn’t know I was crying then.

“Really? He’s okay?” I heard myself whispered. I look deeply into Keiko’s tearful eyes. Begging for a response.

“Yes, he is. So please can you lie down? The doctors need to check up on you.”

I nod. Somehow hearing that Jun is okay I felt relieved. I lie down in my bed and looked at the ceiling. I closed my eyes and I can see Jun’s face as we were free falling. I heard the door opened and closed. I opened my eyes and stared at the ceiling once again. Keiko. I wonder what is Keiko doing here in the hospital. How long have I been here? Where’s my family? Where Ohno, Aiba and Nino? I wonder if Jun is with the same hospital as I am. I need to check up on him.

The door swung open and there were a team of Doctor and nurses that rushed to my bed. They check and asked me everything medical related. I answered politely, mechanically. All I can think about is Jun. After every test and what not the doctors did to me, they said that I was doing better. There were only bruises a broken ankle. I only need to do and MRI to check for some blood clot. I heard the doctor say that it was a good thing that my fall was cushioned. I felt relieved once again. I thought if the cushioned the staff prepared made my fall a little fatal, then Jun is also okay.

Keiko ushered the Medical team out of my room and went beside my bed. I was still staring at the ceiling.

“I already called your parents. I told them you’re already awake. They’ll be here in 10 minutes. I also called the other members. They’ll be visiting you after their visit to Jun’s.”

I looked at her. She eyes gazes at me with doubt and fear. I couldn’t understand why.

“Keiko-san, I apologize for screaming. I’m deeply sorry.

“It’s okay. I understand.” She smiles sweetly at me.

“Keiko-san, I was wondering. Why are you here?”

“I, ahmmm.. When I heard about the accident, I went here as fast as I can. I was worried.”

“hun. But where’s my parents? How long have I been here?”

“Just 2 days. Your mom was here since you were admitted, Your Father and I convinced her to go home and rest. Since It’s my day-off I volunteered to stay here.”

“But why?”

“Why not?”

“Keiko-sa-“

“Sho. I like you. No. I love you.”

I stared at her. Now it was my turn to be surprised. She is a level-headed girl. She is workaholic as well. She is like me in some aspect. I know her professionally. But nothing could have prepared me for this.

“Excuse me, I think I hadn’t heard you right.”

“Sho, I love you. That’s why I’m here.”

“Keiko-san, I.. I’m sorry but.. I can’t reciprocate your feelings.” That was all I can say to her. I looked at her. And she does the same. Her eyes screams pain and sadness. She bows down her head and all she could reply was.

“I know.”

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Keiko left after my parents arrived. They thanked her for staying with me. She bid her goodbyes and went out the door without looking at me. I felt guilty about turning down her feelings. But I knew that I couldn’t like her the way she likes me.

The next day, the doctor said that I can go home the day after tomorrow. The members visited me and I as really glad they came. I’ve been itching to know how Jun was doing.

“SHO-CHAN!!!” Aiba screams and jumped on my bed hugging me tight. I also choked as I chuckled through his enthusiasm.

“Someone misses me so much.”


“I do!” He looks up at me and releases me from his embrace. Then he hit me in the head.

“That’s for making us all worried!”

“Aiba! That hurts!”

“I don’t care!”

“Seriously Sho-chan. Your fails got you here. Stop being clumsy will you?” Nino retort.

Everyone burst out laughing. Aiba continues to hug me and saying how worried he is. He kept on threatening me if this happens next time he’ll hit me in the head real hard that I won’t be able to be awake for days.

The happy atmosphere broke when I asked them about Jun. Everyone just looked at me like I was some ghost. I was confused for the reaction. Aiba stop hugging me and I could feel him shaking, his eyes near to tears. He looked away and I could hear a stifled sob. Nino and Ohno shared gazes and as if on silent agreement Ohno spoke.

“he’s okay Sho-chan. “

“Really? Is he on the same hospital?”

“Yes, he is.”

“ow, I want to see him. Did he broke something? He is going to be discharge?”

“ Not yet.”

“ahh..”

Nino went to Aiba and placed his arms on the older man’s shoulders. Aiba is now sobbing and kept on wiping his face with his hands. I was really curious, but thought that maybe Aiba was just really emotional about the accident which involved two members of Arashi.

“This baka cries everytime. We’ll be out to buy some beer!” Nino winks at us.

“B-but Nino. Is Sho-chan allowed to drink beer?” aiba says between sobs.

“Baka!! Who said I’ll buy Sho-chan beer.. it’ll be for the three of us.. we’ll but him tea!”

“ow! Okay!”

And then the two went out. Ohno and I were left inside the room. I smiled at Ohno. Our leader always has that calming effect on me. And his presence just seems to keep me at peace. Ohno stood up and walked towards me. He pulled a chair and drag it near the bed. He sat and he reached for my right hand. Our hands clasped and I felt the warmth of Ohno’s hands with mine. Ohno loked at me with eyes pleading.

“Sho, I want to ask you something.”

“What is it”

“Please, forget about Jun. Come and live with me.”

My eyes widen. Ohno asking me to forget Jun almost made me forget about him asking me to live with him. I was confused. What the hell is he talking about? Why forget Jun? Why live with him? What sick joke is this?

“Oh-chan, what the heck are talking about? I can’t seem to follow you.”

“I want you to forget about Jun. And I want you to live with me.”

“I heard it Ohno-san! I didn’t ask you to repeat it. I’m asking you what the heck is this about?” I suddenly felt angry. I don’t know why. I felt as if I was betrayed. I didn’t understand him at all.

“Sho, is it too difficult to understand?”

“Ohno-san! If this is some joke, stop it! It’s not funny anymore!”

“Sho, when you were lost and in a lot of pain. It wasn’t just you or Jun. I have been always behind you. Comforting you, supporting you. But Sho, I was also in pain. Cause you’re inlove with Jun. I have been watching on the sidelines, watching you hurt yourself and Jun. But Sho, Jun has a new life and love. This accident made me realized that I want to be with you. To love you, to take away the pain you feel, to love you. Sho, is his enough to make you realize what I meant?”

Ohno stares at me. His gaze, never leaving my face. A tear trickled in his right eye. I felt guilt. Guilt devoured me. All this time I thought that Ohno was always with me because we were friends. But I never thought that he.. he loves me. How many people have I hurt because of my selfishness? Keiko, and Ohno, I never knew they love me.

“Please, Sho. Think about this. I know you love Jun deeply, but think about what he feels. He already moved on and he has Stephanie. I’ll help you to forget him. Sho. Live with me.”

I choked, I lost the ability to speak. My mind was fuzzy. I couldn’t think straight. I look at Ohno and felt sorry for him. I knew, I knew that I will never love him the way I love Jun. I never will. I closed my eyes and whispered, loud enough for him to hear.

“Ohno-san, please. Get out.” Ohno grip my hand tightly. I couldn’t bear to look at him. I was angry at myself now. Why do I always end up hurting the people around me?

“Sho, please lis-“

“Please Ohno-san. Leave.” I said firmly, still my eyes closed. He released my hand adn stood up. I can hear his footsteps. The door creaked opened. Then I heard it closed. I never opened my eyes after that. I slowly drifted to sleep.

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Last night was still a shock to me. Keiko and Ohno confessed to me. If this is what happens when I’m in the hospital, I will never want to be here anymore. I feel a heavy load in my chest. It must be the guilt. I don’t deserve them. I don’t. But my thoughts turned towards Jun. It’s been 4 days. And I actually didn’t hear any concrete information on how Jun was doing.

I saw my phone on the bedside table. Thoughts run through my head. I hesitated but then decides to pick it up and give him a ring.

“Ahmm, Jun?”

“Who is this?”

“ano.. It’s Sakurai Sho. “

“Why did you call?”

‘‘I just want to know how Jun is doing Stephanie-san. Is he awake?”

Then the call was cut. I stared at my phone. I didn’t know what happened. I was reluctant to dial him again knowing that Stephanie will probably be the one who will answer it again. I just want to hear his voice. I wanted to know if he is okay.

A few minutes later the door swung open and a loud bang when the door closed. I saw Stephanie hovering over the bed. Her eyes fixed on mine.

“You have the nerve to call him and ask how he’s doing?”

“Stephanie-san, I was worried. I just want to know.”

“Can you just leaves us alone?”

“I didn’t meant any harm, I was ju-“

“Didn’t meant any harm? Screw you Sakurai. He is in this freaking hospital because of you! He is lying in his hospital bed because of you! And because of you! He can never walk again!”

“w-what?”

“you heard me?? Because of you! He can never walk again! NEVER!”

“b-b-but, I love him!” I screamed infront of her. I just felt that I should tell her this. I love Jun no matter what. And I’ll always will.

“Leave us alone! I thought you are smart enough to know that he doesn’t love you anymore! He’s with me! Can’t you see? And now you ruin his life! OUR life! And don’t get your hopes too high. Yes, he saved you from the fall, but it cost him his legs. But don’t go thinking that he did that because he still loves you! He doesn’t. Stop dreaming!”

“I know he still loves me. I could feel it.” I don’t know why I said that. Was it a fake confidence? Or sheer stupidity? Is it because I don’t want to believe that he doesn’t love me anymore?

She stormed into the door and opened it. And as she was about to go she turned to me and said.

“Forget it Sakurai. Accept it, you already lost. I have him and you don’t. And I have what you can never give him.” She smirked evilly. And she spoke the words like it was a curse. I crooked my head gazed at her questioningly.

“I. Am. Pregnant. With. His. Child.”