TO GET TO YOU - ( 8/11 )

[octavialao]

Title: To Get To You
Author: Power Ranger Red Sho Nut octavialao

Pairings: Sakumoto

Genre: Angst, Romance
Length: Multi-chaptered

Summary: Jun left Sho. He can't blame him though. It was all his fault. But he wants to see him again to get him back.

I woke up feeling light headed. My body ached and i know I had quite a hard fall. All my thoughts lead to Sho. I wondered what happened to him. Did I saved him? Is he okay?

“Jun! Thank God your okay. You gave me a heart attack!”

Stephanie appeared at my side. My thoughts interrupted. She looked angry at me, but trying hard not to cry.

“Stef, I miss you.”

“yea right, and now you miss! What the heck were you thinking when you jumped off the building?!” Her face was red. I love it when she is as close as the color of a tomato. I chuckled.

“Gomen, your boyfriend thought he was a hero and jumped off the building.”

“This isn’t a joke Matsumoto.”

“I know, and I’m very sorry. By the way, who’s Sho doing?” I asked, and it seems that my face is too eager to know because Stef groans and rolls her eyes.

“Damn, it is still him you’re thinking about?”

“Stef, I’m just worried, of course I want to know if he’s okay.”

“What do I expect? You jumped off a building without hesitation because of him.” There was a bitter tone in her words. She was jealous, I could feel it.

“Stef, he’s my friend after all.”

“Is he? Somehow I get the feeling that you still see him as “MORE THAN A FRIEND”. Am I right?”

“Stef,”

“Well! It’s still a good thing that you’re awake now. I’m happy just to know you’re okay.”

She leaned towards me and holds my gaze. She softly placed her lips into mine.

“I love you.” She smiles at me. And I can’t help but smile as well.

“Well, there’s someone who wants to see you badly that me. I’ll go get the doctor.”

“okay, be back soon okay?”

“Nope, I won’t. You made me worried so I’ll be tomorrow.”

“Aww, I’ll miss you!”

“Shut up Matsumoto! You need to be punished!”

I laugh so hard, My ribs hurts like hell. I might have broken a few. I winced but it’s bearable once I stop laughing.

“You know, I kinda feel the need to use the bathroom.” I announced shyly.

“Oh , Mr. Matsumoto. What will you do without me?” She playfully grins at me. She tore the blanket away to one side. As I tried to move I felt numbness in my legs. I tried to move them but I can’t. I tried to wiggle them but my attempts are fruitless. Mine and Stef’s eyes grew wide. It dawned to me, I can’t move my legs.

Stephanie dashed out the room. And I was left in the room staring at both of my legs. I tried to touch them. But I couldn’t feel anything. I tried to pinch them, slap them, scrape them. Still I could not feel anything. My heart raced, and I just stared, and tried to punch them, and punched and punched till Stef and a doctor dashed in to the room. I now stared at Stef’s tearful face. The doctor examined me, but everything went in a blink.

Fear crept up my head, I couldn’t stop thinking that I may not be able to move my legs, I may not be able to walk again. The doctor went outside with stef. They talked about something, It could be a bad news. I shut all the noise as I closed my eyes. Maybe this is just a dream? Maybe when I wake up, everything will be okay. So I tried to put myself to sleep and without noticing it, I did drift to a deep sleep.


“Hello!” A small boy smiled at me. It was now spring and Sakura trees are on bloom. The boy holds a flower in his hands and offered it me. I took and and he smiled more brightly than before.
The boy reminded me of someone. His smile resembles someone, full set of lips and when he smiles his chipmunk teeth shows. His eyes are as clear as glass, round and big. His eyelashes were long. His nose is beautiful but chubby. His cheeks are as round as a ball.

“Do you like Sakura?”

“Yes, I do.” I answered him.

“I like Sakura too. I’m named after Sakura.”

“Really?”

“yep!! My daddy named me!”

“Your daddy must love you so much. By the way, what’s your name?”

“Jun! Sakurai Jun!”

And I woke up, sweating and heart racing. A shiver run through my body. I suddenly felt more afraid of my dream than the fact that I can’t feel my legs. It scares me, and I don’t know why. Why did it scares me? Knowing that the child was Sho’s.. and again I felt shivers.


Stephanie went out to buy something. Before that she was acting weird. I caught her staring at the wall for a few times. Sometimes she was in a deep thought. Yesterday, I heard my phone ring. She answered it for me. Her face was red, and annoyed. I wonder who called that made her like that.

I was left in the room absently flipping channels. Then there was a knock on the door. I looked up towards the door and saw it opened.

“Jun?”

“Riida!” I beamed at him. He smiled at me lazily and walked towards my bed. He was holding a basket full of fruits. He placed it on the table and dragged a chair to my bed.

“How are you?” There was a concerned tone in his voice.

“Honestly, I don’t know.” I stared at the window. Everything is so overwhelming. The accident, My legs, The dream. I don’t know what to do or feel. Ohno cleared his throat and it shook me from my thoughts.

“Don’t lose hope Jun, the doctors said that it might be temporary. You can still feel in some parts of your legs. So it’s not a hopeless case yet.”

“I know, I want to be able to walk again Riida, I always do.”

“And you will, just believe.”

“yea.” It’s hard to believe it. But I did anyway.
“Anyway Riida, How’s Sho?”

“He’ll be discharged tomorrow. It wassuppose to be today. But he almost fainted a while ago. The doctor thought that maybe he needs to be in the hospital a little more to just to be sure.”

“Does he already know?”

“Yes, and honestly Jun, he blames himself.”

“ No, He shouldn’t.”

“You know him Jun, he’ll feel guilty when something goes wrong because of him. And he’ll take it hard.”

“ I know, but he shouldn’t. I jumped at my own expense.”

“He’s worried about you. Really, really worried.”

I blinked at Ohno, somehow hearing that Sho was worried made my heart do a backflip.

“really?”

“Yea. Very much.”

There was an awkward silence that hungs in the air. Suddeny the atmosphere became unreadable.

“Jun, I know this is a bad time to say this but, I really want you to know.”

“hmm? What is it Riida?”

He took a deep breath. And stared directly into my eyes. He looked at me with a serious expression and I’m surprise at this. That’s the face he makes once he is very determined to do something. I wondered what is it that he wants to tell me.

“Jun, I know that you and Sho had a painful history. Sho, still loves you dearly. And I know you still do love him too. But I think both of you need to move on.”

“Riida, I already moved on. And that’s why I’m with Stephanie.”

“It is because you want to move on, that you’re with Stephanie?”

“I..” I thought about it and tried to think about the answer.

“I love her Riida, she was there when I was broken. She helped me build myself again. If it weren’t for her I might be still in pain.”

He looked at me with such unreadable expression and asked.

“Jun, Do you still love Sho?”

“Riida, y-“

“Answer it Jun! Do you still love him?”

He snapped. I was taken aback by this. Riida has been rarely assertive. But it made me thinking, about what I felt about Sho during one of the shoot, where he was kneeling infront of me, crying and begging. I felt hurt and lost. When he was drunk and kissed me, I felt alive again. When I Jumped for him on the building. I felt scare for him.

“No. I don’t love him anymore.” I looked at him,convincing him. But it was a lie. A big lie. I knew it from the start. And there was a pain in my chest.

“well,” he sighed. His smiled a little and his face showed relief. He brushed his hand to his hair. Looking intently at his shoes.

“Thank you Jun. and I have a favour to ask.” He shyly looks up to me. I tilt my head in response. What was this request?

“What is it Riida?”

“Can I have your blessing?”

“Blessing? For what?”

I arched my brows, Riida is been speaking in codes. I can’t understand what the blessing is for. I scratched my head in confusion and Ohno shifted his weight on the chair.

“Please, give me your blessings, I know you already sadi that you don’t love Sho anymore. But I want your blessing in this too, just like when we gave our blessing to Nino and Aiba, and when we gave you and Sho our blessings. I want to ask you to give me your blessing. Sho is going to live with me.”

I stared at him. Mouth hanging open. His words, I couldn’t process properly.

“Sho? Is going to live with you?”

“Yes. I actually confessed to him yesterday. He called me a while ago to tell me that he agrees to live with me. Jun, I love him. Even before you two got together. But I knew you love him, and Sho likes you too. So I kept my feelings inside.”

“Riida, I didn’t know”
“I kept it, because I simply don’t have a place in his heart. But Jun, I got to be honest. What happened to you and Sho made me realize how important he is for me. And now that he is broken, I want to help him build himself. And I’m glad he took my hand. Jun. I need your blessing on this.”

I couldn’t think right. Riida was asking me to give him my blessing. To be with Sho, to take care of him. To love him. I want to give him my blessing. I didn’t know that he was silently hurting because of us. I felt that I betrayed him. If he was going to be happy with Sho, I don’t want to take it away from him again. And beside I already have Stef.

“Riida, you’re one of the bestest friend I ever have. And your happiness is my happiness..”

“Jun, “ he smiled at me.

“But..”

He raised his brows. Waiting for me to speak up.

“I’m sorry..”

“Huh?” He was looking at me confused. I didn’t thought about what I said, but Ohno frowned.

“I’m sorry, Riida. But I can’t.”